In mourning

As some of you know, I was married. Yes I was someone’s wife. A very naught one, obviously. And I say was, because I became a widow on February 23, 2019. It was an unexpected shock and has left me at a loss. I never expected to feel so much sadness but I’ve had ten days straight to think about it and I’m starting to feel somewhat normal again. Thanks to all of you who have sent cards and letters to PO Box 245, Rodeo CA 94572

More on the story of his death, life via video on my Youtube Channel here:  


Note: I will not be up to booking sessions for a while, but if you would like to support me – and believe me I NEED HELP . Although I still have a place to live, there was nothing in the bank and NO LIFE INSURANCE when he passed:

If you haven’t gotten your house in order, do that now. At least he had a will and I knew what he wanted, his ashes spread in a redwood forest in the Santa Cruz Mountains.  He was a tree hugger after all!

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My 1st production

Finished my first adult film with a cuckold theme. Those are some stills from the day, below. Rented an actual movie studio and it made creating so much easier and fun!

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From behind the veil

A new year is in sight. May yours be sensual and full of adventure too lovers!


Blessed be witches


Seeking Bay Area talent

My casting couch is open! Come show me what you’ve got this Thursday Nov 29th in Rodeo CA. A couple of openings are left between 2-4pm in a professional studio. Email for invite

For more on yours truly, Producer, Goddess Justine aka Badd Gramma:
More: Seeking all ages, alternative body types, queer and people of color, as well as members of the trans community as possible partners in film.  In addition to my channels like pornhub and fancentro, I’d like to explore creating something more meaningful for networks such as and PinkLabel.

Please send head shot and picture of your fully clothed body, along with a short bio outlining any experience you may have. Note: If you have an exceptional talent but cannot allow your face to be shown we may be willing to allow you to perform while wearing a mask.

Long term I’ll be looking for fellow web cam models to team up. Must be local and available daytime, esp. during the week. Some evenings possible in the future. Your location can be considered as well. 21 and over.

Again, if we wind up working together our content could be sold on my various channels including p*rnhub, Fan Centro, and ManyVids. That would involve profit sharing, with possible stipends for serious talent that just happens to be temporarily in need.

If you’d like to see some of my professional (and home made work) Google Badd Gramma. Also known as Goddess Justine.

Blessed be


6k Subscribers!

Happy to see I’m over 6,000 subscribers on my Youtube Channel. But who knows how long it will last? My last video earned me a “Strike” and with three, like the sports metaphor, you’re OUT!

I was in a bath tub, talking and teasing. I was pretty careful not to show uncovered nipples or genitals, but it still earned me the 2nd of 3 strikes.

Yes, I have all those videos stored elsewhere but YT is the best platform for reaching the masses. It’s main street. And I cannot walk down it, at least not with my head held high.

Why? Because Sex Workers are seen as the scariest thing on the planet if you run a website. Look into FOSTA/SESTA and see what happened to the owners of Backpage, and you’ll understand. The US Government has us under strict censorship, including the almighty Youtube. But, they need to “man up” and do the right thing.

After all, anyone who has sex with someone then receives gifts can be viewed as a prostitute in some places. Here, included. Don’t believe me? Google “the Matheroo sisters”. If that doesn’t have you scared to post on social media, it should. But I say be brave and do it anyway. Especially if you’re someone like me who has little to lose in the way of power and position. Of course, we’re often the ones least listened to but I will still scream into the void!

To that end, here’s a note I wrote to Youtube after taking one of their Creator surveys.

Oh, and remember to check out my website

And my Youtube channel.

I’m still looking for subscribers. Yup. Playing the violin on the deck of the Titanic. Oh, let’s hope not.

You’re the biggest platform. We need you to promote our businesses and our causes. And for me that means fighting a bad piece of legislation known as FOSTA/SESTA. It’s bad for you and for me.
Think about it. There’s such a slippery slope between being a single woman on social media who receives gifts from “fans” (like the Matharoo sisters in Canada) and being called a prostitute. But what’s so bad about that anyway? We pay people to massage us. Why not the whole body? Why is the government in our bedroos here?!
In my opinion the whole sex worker trafficing cause is just a red herring. Follow the money. Not long ago, escorts and massage parlors used to place advertising in the phone book (AT&T) and elsewhere (Comcast). A lot of money was spent by the small business/service provider on those entities.
And no surprise, AT&T and Comcast were 2 of the biggest contributors to FOSTA passing! And who suffers? The working grrl who’s back on the street because free/cheap advertising on places like Backpage get disappeared.
Remember. Plenty of other human traficking goes on in other industries. Let’s talk about the issue at large, and not scapegoat those of us who must get by using the World’s Oldest Profession!
Note: I do have an issue with my last video resulting in a strike. I honestly thought there was no nudity in it. But I cannot seem to get a response from your service team. Please let me know if you can find out. Thank you. Justine tenZeldam

Filthy depraved bitch

Who might you ask? Moi!

As one of my Sheros Polly Superstar says in one of her books, “Be a proud pervert!”. Shame has gotten us nowhere right?

Attended the Folsom Street Fair for my 3rd year in a row and will likely make it a lifelong, annual activity. There were people of all ages, sizes, shapes and colors. Many were sol and a few were in packs of their own.

Did you make it? If so/if not I am now feeling renewed and ready to rain down upon you! Wet dry or just bruised? Reach out now and have me touch you softly or with an invigorated Fem Dom sense of purpose. With no shame. Like a real pervert.

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Meet & Greet Goddess Justine aka Badd Gramma @Folsom Street Fair this Sunday 11-1 at the SJI Juice Booth

Honored to serve St. James Infirmary (SF)  this Sunday Sept. 30 2019 at the Folsom Street Fair as a volunteer in their JUICE booth from 11am-1pm.  Come buy a slurp and/or DONATE to the cause

History of Prostitution


I think we should have a day to honor people like Veronica Franco, don’t you? Sadly, nobody recorded her birthday. Here’s an artist rendering. Enjoy!

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Like the devadasis of Hindu temples, prostitute-priestesses dispensed
the grace of the Goddess in ancient Middle-Eastern temples. They
were often known as Charites or Graces, since they dealt in the
unique combination of beauty and kindness called charis (Latin caritas)
that was later translated “charity.” Actually it was like Hindu karuna,
a combination of mother-love, tenderness, comfort, mystical enlightenment,
and sex.
Hesiod said the sensual magic of the sacred whores or Horae
“mellowed the behavior of men.”1 Ishtar, the Great Whore of
Babylon, announced, “A prostitute compassionate am I.” 2 Mary Magdalene
said of her sisters in the profession, “Not only are we
compassionate of ourselves, but we are compassionate of all the race of
mankind.” 3
Ancient harlots often commanded high social status and were
revered for their learning. 6 As embodiments of the Queen of Heaven,
in Palestine called Qadeshet, the Great Whore, the harlots were
honored like queens at centers of learning in Greece and Asia
Minor.7 Some even became queens. The empress Theodora, wife of
Justinian, began her career as a temple harlot.8 St. Helena, mother of
Constantine, was a harlot before she became an empress-saint.9
In an Egyptian story, a priestess of Bubastis demanded all of a
man’s worldly goods for one night of her love. She said, “I am a
hierodule; I am no mean person.” 10 Until recently Egypt still had a class
of women called ghazye, “sacred whores,” who were greatly honored
in the time of the Mamelukes and prized as brides when their period of
service was ended.
Temple prostitutes were revered as healers of the sick. Their very
secretions were supposed to have medical virtue. A Sufi proverb still
suggests this opinion: “There is healing in a woman’s vagina.” 12 Even
their spittle could perform cures. Jesus’s cure of blindness by spittle
(Mark 8:23) was copied from a matriarchal tradition. A clay tablet from
Nineveh says eye diseases can be cured by a harlot’s spittle. 13 Harlots
were also sorceresses, prophets, and seers. The Hebrew word zonah
means both a prostitute and a prophetess. 14
Holy Mothers designated the promiscuous priestess-shamanesses
of Japan, also known as spirit-women. Becoming Brides of God, they
entered the shrine to lie with a priest possessed by the god’s spirit. 15
Similar customs distinguished the Indian devadasis, human copies of
the lascivious Heavenly Nymphs.
The profession was popular. Temples of Aphrodite at Eryx,
Corinth, Cyprus, and other sites were served by a thousand sacred
harlots a piece.16 When Hellenic Greeks reduced wives to the status of
servants, the hetaerae or courtesans remained legally and politically
equal to men. Roman matrons of the highest aristocracy prostituted
themselves in the temple of Juno Sospita when a revelation was
needed. 17 Every Babylonian woman prostituted herself in the temple
before marriage.18 By Amorite sacred law, “she who was about to
marry should sit in fornication seven days by the gate (of the temple).”19
Such laws were supposed to appease the Goddess, who disapproved
of monogamy in the era when there was no formal marriage and
children didn’t know their fathers.20 In Greek myth, the Great
Mother forbade the Heavenly Father Zeus to make a monogamous
marriage, holding that only her own ancient system of group marriage
was honorable.21

The Tantric word for a sacred harlot was Veshya, probable origin
of the Goddess’s oldest names in Greece and Rome, Hestia or Vesta,
the Hearth-mother, served by the Vestal Virgins who were originally
harlot-priestesses.22 “Hearth” and “Earth” both arose from the altar
of the Saxon Goddess Ertha, or Heartha, the northern Hestia-Vesta. In
the matriarchal age, every woman’s hearth-fire was her altar.23 The
hearth was also the omphalos, feminine hub of the universe, navel-stone
of the temple, around which the sacred harlots performed their
Dances of Time.
Dancing harlots came to be called Hours: Persian houri, Greek
horae. Egyptian temple-women also were Ladies of the Hour. Each
ruled a certain hour of the night, and protected the solar boat of Ra in
the underworld during his passage through her hour. 24 The Dance of
the Hours began as a pagan ceremony of the Horae (divine “Whores”)
who kept the hours of the night by dances, as Christian monks later
kept the hours of the day by prayers. The oldest authentic Hebrew folk
dance is still called hora after the circle dances of the sacred harlots.
The Horae also guarded the gates of heaven, ministered to the souls of
the blessed, and turned the heavenly spheres.25 (See Houri.)

The Hebrew word hor means a hole, cave, or pit, common
synonyms for both a sacred prostitute and the Goddess she served,
whose yoni was represented by a hole, cave, pit, or pool of water in the
heart of the temple.26 A similar Latin term was puteus, a well or pit,
source of the Spanish puta, “whore.” Common folk the Romans buried
in puticuli, “pits,” which like all graves used to stand for the womb of
rebirth.27 The common root was Vedic puta, “pure” or “holy,” and the
Avestan putika, a mystical lake of the waters of birth. 28 “Lady of the
Lake” was a title of the Great Goddess throughout Eurasia. In Aramaic,
her shrines were Athra qaddisa, “the holy place,” literally a “heavenly
harlot-place,” or genital pit or lake. 29
“To dive into water means to delve into the mystery of Maya, to
quest after the ultimate secret of life …. [T]he cosmic waters are at
once the immaculate source of all things and dreadful grave.” 30 All
Asia called water a female element, the source of creation, the arche of
Stoic philosophy. To dive into such water was a symbol of sexual
intercourse. Communing in this way with a holy whore, man could
realize the spiritual enlightenment called horasis. This word appears
in the New Testament (Acts 2:17), misleadingly translated “visions.” 31
A Semitic clan, the Horites of Genesis 36, traced their descent
from the Great Goddess as “Hora.” 32 The Jews had cult prostitutes
in the time of King Josiah, when they lived next to the temple and wove
hangings for the sacred grove (2 Kings 23:7). Modern translations of
the Bible call them “sodomites,” but the original wording meant holy
harlots. 33 Such holy harlots were often “brides of God,” set apart to
give birth to Sons of God, i.e., prophets and sometimes sacrificial
victims. 34
Holy whores were called “virgins” because they remained unmarried
(see Virgin Birth). Like medieval nuns, they took veils as a
badge of their office. Ishtar-Asherah-Mari-Anath was not only the Great
Whore but also the Great Virgin (kadesha, holy one). Her Greek
name was Athene, also described as a “virgin” (Parthenia); but Athene’s
temple, the Parthenon, was served by promiscuous hierodules like all
other shrines of the Goddess. Later myths rationalized the perpetual
“virginity” of lascivious fertility-goddesses by periodic hymen-renewing
ceremonies such as sea baptism, annual bathing in sacred springs, etc.
The virginity of Great Mother Hera was annually restored by a dip in
the spring of Canathos at Nauplia. Pausanias said the myth was based
on a rite of bathing the Goddess’s image.35
Because whores occupied a significant position in paganism, Christians
vilified their profession. Churchmen didn’t want to stamp out
prostitution altogether, only amputate its spiritual meanings. St. John
Chrysostom earned high praise from the Patriarch of Constantinople
for robbing temple prostitutes of “the honors paid to them.” 36 The triad
of heavenly Horae were mythically virginized as three maiden saints
martyred together, Agape, Chionia, and Irene (Love-feast, She of
Chios, and Peace). 37 Real horae were relegated to hora-houses, no
longer temples. The traditional red light of the whorehouse descended
from the houses of Roman venerii who displayed the sign of an erect
phallus, painted blood red. 38
Medieval Germanic law forbade a man to build a horgr, or to call
his house a horgr, on pain of forfeiting every penny he owned;
because horgr meant a pagan shrine, a house of “holy whores” where
priestesses carried on the old religion. Such place names as Horgsholt
in Iceland still identify ancient shrines. 39
In the year l 000 A.D. the Icelanders agreed to become Christian in
name at least, and to be baptized; but all who wished were still legally
permitted to celebrate the rites of their ancestors in private houses called
horgr, for a while, until the church rescinded its promises of tolerance.
40 In earlier centuries, the horgr seems to have been a mons
veneris or omphalos in a sacred grove. 41
Sometimes the alternate word hus (house) carried the same sense
of “a place of worship,” because every matriarch once worshipped
the Goddess of her own hearth, which she could share with more than
one hus-band. Hence the word hussy, Lady of the House, by
Christian definition a promiscuous woman.42
Promiscuity was appreciated, rather than deplored, by medieval
minnesingers who worshipped the Goddess under her new name of
Minne, “Love.” They objected to commercialized prostitution as a
degradation of their deity: “Love, the queen of all hearts, the freeborn,
the one and only, is put up for public sale! What a shameful
tribute is this that our mastery has required of her! We cultivate Love
with embittered minds, with lies, and with deceit, and then expect from
her joy of body and heart; but instead, she bears only pain, corruption,
evil fruit, and blight-as her soil was sown.” 43
Theologians however accepted commercial prostitution as “a lawful
immorality,” in St. Thomas Aquinas’s self-contradictory phrase.
Aquinas said prostitution was necessary to prevent men from sodomizing
each other: ”Take away prostitutes from the world,” he said, “and
you will fill it with sodomy.”44 Prostitution enabled man to look upon
promiscuous women as depraved, though their equally promiscuous
clients were seen as helpless victims of compulsion. There was no
recognition of the truth, that most prostitutes acted under a more
telling compulsion than any man’s sexuality: the need to earn wherewithal
to keep alive. It was not an easy living. At best the prostitute
was forced to make herself a stranger’s abject servant. At worst, she
could become his tormented victim.45
Certain anticlerical writers maintained that prostitutes should be
respected for their willingness to be kind. Lorenzo Valla’s 15th-century
De Voluptate called for a return to ancient customs, echoing
Horace’s Omnia voluptas bona est. Valla wrote: “Whores and
prostitutes deserve more from the human race than do nuns with their
chastity and virginity!” 46 Of course, such sentiments did not prevail.
Two centuries later, English apprentices celebrated each Shrove Tuesday
by breaking into whorehouses and beating the inmates. It also
became customary in England for men to “punish” the whores they
patronized by hamstringing: cutting the sinews of the legs to make
the woman a permanent cripple.47 One might be reminded of the
Chinese custom of crippling courtesans by footbinding.
God punished the whores in hell even more severely than men
punished them on earth, according to God’s spokesmen, whose
asceticism engendered sexual fantasies of astonishing violence.48 Monkish
deprivations and repressions led to secret envy and fierce hatred of
the carnal folk who might be suspected of enjoying sexual activity.49
The hatred poured out in a thousand nasty fantasies of hell. Abbe
François Arnoux, canon of Riez in 1622, provides an example:
And the light women, these shall have in their arms a dragon most cruel,
flaming with fire … who shall bind and enchain their feet and their
legs with his serpent tail and shall clasp their whole body with his cruel
talons, who shall put his beslabbered and reeking mouth upon theirs,
breathing therein flames of fire and sulphur and poison and venom, who
with his nose, glandered and hideous, shall breathe into theirs a breath
most stinking and venomous … this dragon shall make them suffer a
thousand agonies, a thousand colics and bitter twistings of the belly, and
all the damned shall howl, and the devils with them, “See the wanton! see
the strumpet! Let her be tortured indeed! To it, to it, ye devils! To it,
ye demons! To it, ye hellish furies! See the harlot! See the trull! Hurl ye
upon this whore and wreak upon her all the torments ye can!” 50
On the wall of the women’s section of the Church of St. John
the Baptist in Kastoria, a painting showed God’s punishment of a
whore. Bound in hell, the woman had her legs stretched apart by two
demons, while a third demon plunged red-hot irons into her vagina.
Next to the woman punished for being sexually available, another
woman labeled the Vain Coquette was similarly punished for not being
sexually available. 51 Women attending this church might well be
excused for thinking they were damned if they did and damned if they
Churchmen did not distinguish between a professional prostitute
and a woman in love with a lover. Both were “whores.” The whole
point of patriarchal morality was that women must not have the right
to pick and choose men. For a woman to fall passionately in love was a
tragedy under the medieval church: to pay for a few stolen hours of
love, both she and her lover were doomed to an eternity of suffering. 52
The point was illustrated by Grunewald’s painting The Damnation
of Lovers, showing a sinful pair as emaciated corpses living in hell, with
worms burrowing through their flesh, the woman crowned with a
coiled serpent, her genitals gnawed by a toad. According to a 15th-century
illustration for St. Augustine’s De Civitate Dei, lovers would
be bound together on spits in hell and roasted over coals fanned by
devils. 53
With western religion envisioning such grisly punishments for
sexual enjoyment, it is hardly surprising to find western civilization as
a whole seized by a sick compulsion to destroy all forms of pleasure. 54
Even in the Christian heaven however, whores had their special
protectors, modeled on pagan Roman harlot-goddesses like Venus
and Meretrix. Official Catholic patrons of whores were St. Aphra, St.
Aphrodite, and St. Maudline (Magdalen), simple canonizations of
former titles of the Goddess. 55 Chief protectress of whores was the
virgin Mary. In Antwerp up to the present century, prostitutes spent
certain annual feast days marching in procession to the churches, to
dedicate candles to the Holy Virgin whom they called their own
special deity. 56
An oft-told tale of the Middle Ages said when a nun decided to
run away from her convent, to live as a prostitute for a few days,
Mary assumed the errant nun’s appearance and took her place in the
convent, so she wouldn’t be missed and pursued. 57 A German variant
of the story said the nun, Beatrix, left the convent to live with her
heathen lover for 15 years. When she returned, she found that Mary
had served as her stand-in all the while. 58
Medieval brothels were not always clearly distinguished from
convents. A trace of the pagan collegia of priestesses still clung to
both institutions. Early “double convents,” with men and women
united in one community, sometimes housed consecrated prostitutes.
Several popes maintained “holy brothels” in Rome; Queen Joanna of
Naples founded a religious house of prostitutes called The Abbey in
the papal city of Avignon. In Victorian times, it was still a common
custom to call the madam of a whorehouse “the abbess,” though the
historical precedent was forgotten. 59 See Mary Magdalene.
Outside the Judea-Christian tradition, prostitution often became a
fully legitimate lifestyle. Black Africans never fully accepted missionaries’
views on the matter. White men’s laws deprived African women
of their property and their monopoly of farming, trading, and crafts
by which they supported their children. African women suffered a
devastating loss of self-respect, for in their society a woman without
her own income was regarded with contempt. On finding that white
men would pay for their sexual favors, many African women took up
prostitution as their last remaining chance to make an honest living.
Africans still regard a successful prostitute as a usefully employed
businesswoman rather than a criminaJ.60
By contrast, Christian society seldom offered women any formal
opportunity to take up prostitution as a career, but half-deliberately
looked the other way as many hundreds of young girls “fell” into it.
Eighteenth-century London swarmed with female children struggling
to keep themselves alive by prostitution, according to a
contemporary pamphlet denouncing “little Creatures piled in Heaps
upon one another, sleeping in the public streets, in the most rigorous
seasons, and some of them whose Heads will hardly reach above the
Waistband of a Man’s Breeches, found to be quick with Child, and
become burdensome to the Parish.” Far from extending sympathy to
these little girls, the pamphleteer called them wicked whores, “a most
enormous Sin to lay Snares for the Unwary, and to be the Means of
ruining both Souls and Bodies of so many innocent young
Gentlemen.” 61
According to the terminology of the time, a “wench” was a child
of either sex. Dryden’s description of a gentleman as one who “eats,
drinks, and wenches abundantly” apparently meant a man who picked
up homeless male or female children in the streets to service his
sexual idiosyncrasies. Later, “wench” came to mean only a lower-class
female, a servant or peasant available for a gentleman’s sexual use.62
By the 19th century, thousands of girls under the age of 14 were
listed on English police registers as “common prostitutes.” London in
1860 had at least 500 registered prostitutes under the age of 13, and
1500 more under the age of 16. Victorian gentlemen had a taste for
raping child virgins, who commanded the highest prices in whorehouses.
Experienced child whores were taught to imitate the cries
and struggles of a newly deflowered victim, and to insert leeches or
broken glass into their vaginas to produce a convincing flow of
Josephine Butler’s investigations of the English system of prostitution
led to legislation to raise the “age of consent” to 14; still, large
numbers of younger girls were captured and immured in brothels. “The
law was lax on the matter of abduction, and the punishment for
trafficking in girls was derisory.” Male authorities took an interest in
prostitution only after they clearly understood its connection with
rampant venereal disease. Legal regulation of brothels was instituted
then; but this didn’t mean closing them. It meant subjecting them to
medical inspections, so they would be safe for male patrons.64
Whores were not considered full-fledged human beings. The
18th-century term for a whore was “a fleshy convenience.” 65 The
word “convenience” also meant an outhouse. One might say that from
the revered sacred harlot of antiquity to this was a long road
Marginal note:
As Mother of
Harlots, Ishtar was
called the Great
Goddess HAR. Her
high priestess the
Harine was spiritual
ruler of “the city of
Ishtar.” 4 HAR was a
cognate of the
Persian houri and the
Greek Hora, also the
origin of “harem,”
which used to mean
a Temple of Women,
or a sanctuary.5 A
similar meaning was
once attached to
seraglio, from Semitic
serai, a shrine of

Alma Mater

“Soul-Mother,” a Roman teaching priestess, especially one empowered
to give instruction in the sexual Mysteries. (See Cowrie). The
name was based on Al-Mah, a Middle-Eastern name of the Moongoddess,
also a title of her temple women, almah- the same word that
described the virgin Mary in the Hebrew versions of the Gospels.1
The priestess called alma mater bore a relationship to the male initiate
similar to that of the Tantric Shakti.


The earliest angels were heavenly nymphs, like Hindu apsaras, who
dispensed sensual bliss to the blessed ones. Vikings called them
Valkyries. Greeks called them Horae. Persians called them Houris, or
Peris (fairies). A guardian angel was a personal Shakti who watched
over a man and took him into her ecstatic embrace at the moment
of death.
Hindu angels were created primarily for lovem
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